ALANNNNNNNNNNNNN !:D

2010-11-10T04:37:00.001+08:00

hey dulcia its been 11months i wanna let it go now but i cant i will try my best too. bye i love you baby.....

2010-02-28T21:16:00.002+08:00

hey girl, no matter what im always the way i am. maybe u had see that im happy or what, always think of u. thinking one day u will return... hope so. i still love you.. maybe one of my ex pick me up i like her... but i just love u dulcia. i tryed to hate u but i cant cos i love u too much. feeling never fade once till now. im still waiting. baby when will u come back to me? im waiting......

2010-02-09T22:10:00.002+08:00

baby, 24 days has past. u never reply my sms. i really very shag not having u by side, 24 day have past im still waiting for u. i use 1 month to get u and im gonna use 1 month to get u back to me. maybe can? i don't even think so. i still remember u told me when ur 18 u wanna live with me under the same roof. im always waiting for that day to come. i miss u baby. really do miss u. i want to have ur hugs and kisses. most of all i want u to be my wife back into my life. supporting for each other. baby even if i have to wait for 10 years for u i will but i really just want u now. 老婆，我每一天都在想你. when will u return to me. i wanna take care of u for my rest of my life i love u. but u don't le. baby.....

2010-02-08T19:54:00.009+08:00

i always know u have read my blog. :) 23 days le wor. u have some one in ur very little heart le. im gonna open this blog to let every one know whats in my life soon. thank you for opening this blog for me. i promise it won't be close down. days will still be counting on, till you have come and love me like how u once did. smile man! she may have like someone else in this 23days and i don't know why but it's so fast. if someone truly love someone, even how bad that person is love won't fade a single bit. love can be up and down. no matter what, i had been loving u all this while. i maybe scary to you but im still the me that love u like an idiot. saying all this also no use le. nth i say can touch her heart any more. u may think im the beating up ppl type but i'm not. i'm just the me you always know. i hate when u sms guys when we go out, i don't like it not him then him. im just at the top of my anger. At 24/12/09 i know i was wrong to scold u. i was in pain and i shouted at u in frount of my 2 friend. im sorry. if i had never love you, i wont walk all the way to ur house to see u home and walk all the way home from ur house. there is always u in my heart. but then since that day ur feeling had fade. day by day feeling grow lesser for u. and another one we went to TP it was fun. something like clubing but then was not hyper. u keep msging others and i was like okay uh u want msg u go ahead. but till one msg i wanted to see but din't let me. what do u think i will think? guys? and its true she was msging a guy. i don't know before that she was msging who. i was so shag at that point of time u was like msging all the long. so many times i go out with u guys will msg u. u say cos there is only 3 of us and u wanted call more ppl. i was totally turn off. when ever we two go out msg from guys will come in. all u care is when im looking u wont reply. after turning away u would reply them. why cant u just say ur busy? or say stop brothering u like how u ask me too? or don't reply them? some times u just wants others attention but why not mine? maybe yes one or two will msg me i'll tell them im on a date with my girlfriend. im sorry for that day im really just turn off u have been like this since our first date or maybe me bring u to tuition. guess by that day ur feeling really faded. sorry was too shag to smg u some times i just need time to cool down. on the kite day i guess, we went to fly kite near ur house de. the first thing i see u i feel like hugging u kissing u but at that time we broke up le. and it was my most FREAKING day. im sorry i could not save ur hand. u know how hurt am i seeing ur hand like this? i try to save ur kite and i ended up not saving ur hand how i wish it was my hand and not urs! looking at ur hand u din't wanna care me keep pulling ur hand away from me. the scar on ur hand shows how big it have cut me in my heart. i wanna hug u show care for u till i relise ur not mine anymore. i ask u what u wanna eat u keep saying don't know and i was so emotional and my anger came out. im sorry i keep thinking of ur hand. im heart broken seeing ur hand like this. u told me to take bus 3 home but im worry about u some one called me. i ran out of the bus and ran to ur house downstairs. i was freaking worry about u. U KNOW MAH?! D': i called 51 times and u keep kup my phone. im sorry i shouted at u the 3th time. im really worry for u that day. after that day i never sms u u tell me to forget u. by then feeling in u is totally gone i think? no me in u anymore. i try to find a girl just to make u feel jealous and i tryed to forget u but i cant.till now i had learn how to love ur bad and good part of u i love ur everything. if not for u i had been dead don't wanna study. u supported me this 7 month. i got so much things to remember. and i wanna recall things that we did. i only can think of the good things bad once i can just forget it not having u by my side is like hell to me. I LOVE U DULCIA! never once i hated u never once i have feeling fade. is just that feeling hide themself at one part of ur heart. u just have dig it out :) saying i love you to u seem like nth to u le. maybe this my life? so many things to remember about u. fated to be like this and my ending is like this? all i care is i still love dulcia alot. lets recall what i hand wrote for u on my msn. :)

170609;0659pm Baby iloveyou, 我爱你 ! 愛してる! 사랑해! Dulcia 愛しているキミだけを!

I Will Remember This Date And Time Forever 170609;6.59pm I Love You Dulcia !

bi u say before u cant love me so deep u scared that i it will be one other fail relationship. as time go by i will prove to u i willing to love u take u in my life and prove that i will always be TIONG XIN to make u accept me totally in your life . i will make you trust me really gonna trust me that u wont feel like im that kind of guy that is truly to love.

I'm all alone waiting for u. I always love u. Please give me one more chance. JUST ONE!
( i think i really got that very one chance le.) D':

命中注定我愛你！Love Is Never A lie. I'm Fated To Be With Her. Always be happy! (: Forgive And Forget. Change myself. Its never fair !

Now the things u had say and wrote i have remember. :) i love most of them :D

Alan;Dearest , im really leaving you now , im giving up everything and start anew . i really hope you WILL! change yourselve . i want to see the change in you from others telling me , i really hope u will be more wise up . be more diligent , dont small things then find the person , not worth , find a girl that is worth for you more than me . im giving you up , not cos i dont love you , cos i love you too much , i dont wish to get hurt anymore , today is the happiest day for you i suppose , today is also the day where i replace your that time birthday . Every memories you gave me i will treasure it . ILUMA (':

Baby;
Although i only knew u one month plus, but i aready knew u alot(: i guess. heehee you promise me u would show me love forever, untill u really proved me then i will believe u. now, obviously i don't believe at all. stating facts man, until today i've never regretted being with u. you're the first guy i've had really loved whole heartdly, a love that i've been seeking for. please don't spoil this heart i've gave u. 170509 you're confessed your love to me, and on 170609 we're together le. bi, i love you. i really do, i'm just afraid that i 've choose the wrong choice, but i wont regret even i really lose u one day, because the memories is all that i wanted:D 170609;06.59pm
Dulcia Lee Yi Ting <3 Alan Tan Wei Jie.

Alan,
maybe when u read this letter, i have left you. i donnno, im confuse. i know u actually meant what u say just that u dowan me to get upset. but im tired facing u. i don need u to cry for me. i don need u to forgive me. i dowan u to see me suffer. i don't want u to ever think of me anymore. please im not worth. apart from the mistake i made, the way u treat me has changed. i am no longer important to u anymore. friends are more important. i just want to thank u for all the 6th month together or rather 7th. i just want to tell u, find a better one. im tired, sorry to give up halfway. i just don't wish to see u cry for this bad relationship anymore. im spechless now. i don't wanna say how i actually feel. but my wish is to spand 6th month with u, but to u there seems to be no more six month. im impatient, bad-tempered, stubborn, self-centered, attention seeking. i have nothinh good for u to love. i just want to tell u, im really sorry for this hurt i have done to u. which has makes me felt that this relationship is hopeless already. and i have no reason for u to love me anymore. i just hope u would take good care of urself. i promise i would be alive, but i donno what i should do. i just gonna take my self for a break. u would not leave me a single bit from my heart, i promise. alan, take care of yourself. i just want the 17th of my month. be it, alone or with you. i just want 17th. im sorry. 170609, i love it for life. i will be back if i couden't bear without you. but i don't want u to wait for me.

(this is not a bad relationship i always love 170609 dulcia. im sorry. my wish now is to spand my 7 and 8 month together with u. on the same day. coving up for 7 month. i wanna have u for my every birthday. bi, i really love u. )

Honey,<3
FATass, hehe. its been long seen i have write letter seh. hehe. anyways a few more days will be our sixth month anniversary im not sure if u are looking forward to it, but then im certainly am. hahas remember the time when i last wrote a letter was like 3-4months ago. between this period, although we have gone through alot things, although im not sure if the feeling is still frash. but im sure we still loveeach other alot <3. no doubt both of our attitude change ALOT. at times, we complain about each other, which leads to QUARREL. but after so many time of break and patch, im seriously tired of it. no point playing such things le. next time must think before act liao. and i know boys will get SUPER DUPER exhausted of it. soon feeling would fade as well. im not sure if its too late to say this. i just hope.... to spand the rest of my life with u. we have walk halfway through, and i don;t wish to stop half way through. currenly im just not feeling right seeing u like this. Baby i <3 you. and i will never gonna leave u a single bit.
written on: 14/12/09.

haha baby u write all this for me i feel so happy. baby i love u all my life. i still remember. 160509 its was my first time knowing u haha we went to iluma :) some day after that the part when u write hahahahahaha i tot its was nananananana it was when u first fall in love with me. baby i just cant foget about it. i think u had forget about it le ba. :')seeing u take picture with him hand holding on to hand just make me feel heart brokening. hand over hand its just make me feel.... heart broken. taking picture with him standing so close to each other makes me feel really jealous and its really heart broken! i just want u back! thanks baby for all this while. i will never forget u and always love u deep in my very small cave in my heart. i have keep the recipe when we went for sakura on out 6 anni. u don have to worry i let no one see my blog le.valentines is around the coner le. i don know what to buy for u. i wanna make something for you. i just wish i would find some day to cover up for valentines day, 7month and 8month. hope that valentines day no body date u ba otherwise don't need count as coving up for valentines day le. if u had see it please tag for me just to let me know.. baby i love u forever! the promise u get u had never NEVER left my heart one bit. loves <3 waiting for ur return...........

2010-02-01T22:17:00.002+08:00

today 16 day le. i don't know why but i still feel jealous when there is other guy being with u. blogging about him and other guy guess i haven change abit. i have see ur blog. wow still got boy wan pei u till blk sia. hais... u also like some one else le huh? i just cant forget u i don't know WHY! what is the problem with me?! seeing u blogging about other guy i feel so mad and jealous! i feel so........ everyday seeing the things u give me feel so... i wanna have u back but i guess there is no turning back. No U turn for me uh? feel is like fuck now? i really cant stand it any more! maybe talking to jia yun can make me feel better uh. going out with friend can make me forget u but its just a short while. seeing pooh sitting on my bed remind me of u. i...... i... dulcia u don't love me anymore that came out from ur mouth. when ever i think of u i think of this to forget u. got more and more boys are coming to u le uh? why cant i forget u?! i like jia yun? or i love jia yun? or both is just to make me forget u?! i feel no important to this world anymore im getting sick day by day weaker and weaker.hyper outside but im just a lonely guy. haha u maybe reading this. i suck! i SUCK! remember about the queen size bed i told u about? hhow i wish u were the one sleeping beside me. and not others. i don feel right being with other girl some time. what can i do? U turn? i don't know i wanna give up on myself too but there is wan and the others that is supporting me. ALOY ur the best bro! Always my pair of ear when i need it! wan u may not be good at cooling ppl down but ur a good bro always listen to what i need to say. but some time ur too wanna beat ppl up haha! darryl know when im sad or what. amanda cheer me up when i need it. wei zhi a small boy but a good bro. bryan haha my funny bro cheer me up always. others are good too but u all cant see this post haha! haha talking about them make me feel happy. happy for awhile thats all. Dulcia some time make me laugh. best baby ever! haha its the past i guess? eyes are getting wet bye!

2010-01-26T22:03:00.002+08:00

10th day le. haha maybe life is getting better? i hope so. whatever i say now u also wont believe me anymore. i just wanna say she care for me like how u did the last time. and i don't really think i like her it maybe a crush? im not even fighting for her. i just sms her. maybe sometime talk to her. this is all i can do to not think about u. u leave me here and some one pick me just cheer me up. maybe ur thinking is diffen? she can make me not think of u. she can chane my mind some time? change till i can don think of u. i like her in ways she can make me not think of u. i don't wanna think about our anything any more. but i cant forget u. 10th day crying before going to sleep, it make me so much better. nightmare about u everynight. all same dreams. im scared of sleeping! maybe infront of others i maybe strong but im weak in the inside.

Alan

2010-01-25T23:12:00.003+08:00

9th days u had leave me. i just don't wanna think about the past anymore. but i just cant forget u. i want u. even if i had say we will never be together any more its just a lie i want u back badly. i miss u i miss ur kisses ur everythings. ur hugs. but i don want to think about all the past we had. past uh? its never gonna be change. im just trying to avoid the past not being with u. but i WANT u back BADLY uh! im just to scared to face our past and to the some of ur past. the more i think i feel like crying. 9th day i had cry le i don't know why. why is it so hard to forget u? i hate you! throwing me away. finding other guy. see here i go again. but then 170609 is no longer around. its over le. once this date is over i wont wanna go back to her any more. we have leave each other for 9 days date is no longer there any more. no 7 month NTH! its already not there seen that day u stead with that guy! I DON WAN TO FACE OUR PAST ANYMORE! BUT I WAN U BACK! f i can i would wan a car crash and forget most of the bad things not most is all! I DONT WAN TO FACE IT! nightmare for all 9 night or more. i hate the pasts! its suck nth can cover up pasts even good memories. nth can make me forget it. now ur happy with ur life. can talk to guys sms them. blog about them. no one care also. im nth at all. I DON WAN TO FACE ANY OF OUR PASTS OR YOURS! i just wan u back like how i first meet you. its not gonna happen anymore. its the pasts of ours and yours thats making me avoiding you for life and for good.

Alan

2010-01-24T02:25:00.002+08:00

8th day u had leave me. yes i don't like u to talk to ur friend. BOYS. what have i get when u talk to boys? i will never forget that day u throw me away and find another boy. Rayan uh? Rayan, u may not see what i have write here. u had make me so fuck up. maybe this is fated? uh? cos one thing u broke up with me stead with other guys u think i would still trust u? whoam i too u toy? throw me and find RAYAN? u know how sad am i now?! crying almost every night. i don't feel like living any more some times. for what die for u? the only way to ban my anger is to write out. i love you! but u make me not to trust you. u never treated this date as a thing u? 170609? its a big blow to me uh! i just wanna cry out loud. I HATE YOU. I HATE YOU! a toy uh? maybe now ur much more happy. without me. hair do make eyebrown theres never me in ur life at all. u never care about me! i could i love u like one IDIOT! maybe other girls can make me forget u? NO! i just wanna cry now i wanna be alone bye.
Alan

5th day u had leave me.

2010-01-21T21:31:00.003+08:00

maybe now u have gone. leaving me behind. throw me away le. i just have to get over it. maybe 3years we will be back together? throwing me and IT behind. when ever i see IT i will think of seeing u carrying it around hugging IT to sleep in the movie. cry like one baby no body know. everythings i can keep to not remember, but not IT. i just feel like throwing the ring into the sea. not to see the ring again anymore. or maybe dig the flower pot outside my house puting the ring in and cover it. after 5 years time digging it up may lead me to crying? u are my best stead or best girlfriend i ever have. 6month 30days? thats alot. 170609;06.59pm was loved. i will remember the day u really throw me away which is to day. 21/1/10. maybe next time i will hate u for throwing me away leaving me alone in a place. unable to stand, walk or talk. im just like a baby don know anything. maybe someone can pick me up again, supporting me like how u did the last 6month?

Alan

2010-01-18T23:13:00.004+08:00

im here to blog again. guess no one will see this blog anymore. talking to myself? maybe? today 2nd day le. i really feel so tired. when ever i think of what happen i eat and eat with tears flowing down my cheek. just feel like eating up every thing i can. feel so much better after eating or maybe going out with friends? much thanks to jeremy and jia yun for today. thanks for making me happy but its all fake smile and laugh. guess she had found another guy or maybe that R guy? just wish that u find some one better then me. haha blogging to myself ? im turning md soon i guess? they had been telling me im not normal like myself. really? no maybe they are just joking. so long alan.

what am i ?!

2010-01-11T20:02:00.007+08:00

what am i to u ?! all u care is what is sms other guys talk to other guys. taking pic with other guys. YES! i don like it, but have u think of me ? u yesterday say u don't care weather i like it a not . yes i know is not only me to be happy u also. but its like i don know la! i just feel nth to u. ME adding on to ur work making u more stress. so other guys wont ? don't listen to me then. im really just nth. u treat me cold since school reopen. forget it. in ur mind im really nth to u i guess? oh yeah one more holding on to someone taking photo huh? what if i sms other girl talk to them take picture with them? i had not contact any GIRLS since that day we stead maybe for one or two. but we lost contact le. go out with me sms other boys or keep msging. why must i see other boys MSGING u ?! im very tired and shag le ! feeling so sick now, and no one care. TIRED SEEING ALL THIS!!! !@#$%^&*!!!! !@#$%^&!!!!!!

2009-11-27T17:37:00.002+08:00

Okay , im here to blog for him again ,
irritating idiot x: , want me blog for him ,
ownselve dowan blog , then down there play ROOM-SKATE !?!?
dunno la , lame game , then now on the phone with him ,
playing AUDI! kns , then i blogging for him . D': ,
and im sick somemore , someone pity me X:
hehes. . okays uh .. just wanna tell you guys ,
how lazy my boyfriend is .. whenever he wants me to help him blog .
i will surely say he is lazy ! gahhs .
how many 987654321 days later then he will be blogging ??
hmms .. when miracle comes again .
anyways , bryan , no affair ok ! if not i complain to your stead D': !
and baby ! im gonna DITCH you ! muahahhahs .
i wouldnt dare to X: , lalas .. baby oh baby.
no matter how much fucking quarrels we have ,
we will stil be together again , so now we must lessen our god-damn stupid quarrels X:
k , goodbye :D

Helping my lazy pig blog:D

2009-11-23T02:59:00.002+08:00

Yeahs , this idiot have not been blogging since im back from malaysia,
guess i have to go oversea often so he will blog yeahs ?
No updates at all, machiam dead liaozxs ! X:
k , just change his blogskin to make it more ALIFE! hopefully :D ,
hahas .. and change his display picture :D ,
hmmm .. this boyfriend is so lazy that he wants me to do everything for him.
i gonna whack him upside down someday x:
Oh! and and !! bi , i hate you ! jokn!
you outside got boyboy uh ! whats w/ the tag , Baby w/ heart shape !
im super disappointed w/ you X: ,
joking again :D !
anyways , Bryan you got stead liao , cannot take my stead.
if not i .... .... i call ALOY to bite you X:

2009-11-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

Hey! long time no blog le. so many thing happen. chalet just finish today so tired. called bi talk to her was so freaking tired talk half way fall asleep. bi im sorry. 9am today faster rash home to call bi, she going malaysia le 1 week so sad uh. hais.... what to do? just wish that u and amanda have fun (: THANKS BI FOR COMING YESTERDAY. saying is her friend coming blaff me! haha. so long only can meet u one time. :((( nbm lo just tahan. baby i love you ! :D

Wedding dinner

2009-09-23T22:02:00.004+08:00

zilin, alan, meisiew

some late post. Is at raffles City, Swissotel The Stamford! Went with my cousins. The Wedding dinner was damn grand. So nice ! Feel so rich ! theres some picture. (:

2009-09-03T15:10:00.000+08:00

Hi guys! today wake up at 7am so tired sia then when back to sleep till 7.10am bo pan must go school. sms Bi she din reply think that she sleep le. Bi i'm worried that u don't get to sleep well this few day. it hurt my heart :( then 10+ Bi reply sio, mood so happy ! after that she tell me she cant go back to bath cos her dad still sleeping. smelly wor! who care i love the way she is. :) In class freak keep think must do well for EOY! feel sick when i went home. Bi must get more rest uh!! :)

2009-09-01T14:08:00.003+08:00

let talk about yesterday..

yesterday nth much happen even it my birthday. a happy day let some one make till so... and all the wishes that i made never come true. was not even happy yesterday not at all. feel so fucked up and some thing happen yesterday . but i have too thank those who celebrate with me THANK!

2009-08-26T20:48:00.000+08:00

Don't feel like posting today. Having a unhappy day. i really need someone...

a romance girl always find ways to make the love true

2009-08-25T17:15:00.008+08:00

yesterday! Monday!
like always school was nth. study abit then die down there. in the morning i already feel sick le but then mother call me go school . hais.... sadded.
after school went to find bi and the other at Tmart was freaking sick at that time but nbm la i promise her i would meet her after her dance thingy. after seeing her awhile i feel much more better le think is our love that make me feel better, then joke and laugh with bi ! HahaHaha was freaking happy with her yesterday wish we were like this everyday ! She my every thing in this world!! :D

Today!! Tuesday!
in the morning went to school sleep in calss more then 3 hours i think. 8 to 9 English so sian de lo wtf. after class went down to eat wtf keep thinking wanna eat what then thinking of my cheese hotdog in my bag so went to take it out and eat. after that sms bibi say cheese hotdog so say walao hahaha funny sio. but too bad cant sms bi too much. later her 2nd line boom. physic class also lan lan sleep 1 more hour math also other hours. reach home le bathe eat call bi talk talk till she reach home also keep laughing. :D

Bibi this how i feel when ur not around ! :D
i love u Dulcia Lee Yi Ting mine Babe!

Lyric for the song!

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find opposing new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

Im Sorry Baba !!! This For You !

2009-08-23T16:19:00.000+08:00

bi im really sorry, u make this blog just for me and i take it like nth im really sorry. i will continue Blogging. u did so much for me and i don't apprecite what u have done for me i feel bloody guilty. i will blog for u every time when im free. bibi it our 2nd month being together and i feel that i had hurt u too much, too much sorry. even though i have this kind of attuditude u are willing to make me change and stay with me. i will change myself i will.

My Only Wish !
Last ForEver With Bi !

babe i know what u have been in. i won't be like the rest of them i PROMISE u. i know it hard for u to forget all that but i really wish u could forget it. im willing to wait and help u. i know it easy to forget for me but not u. bit by bit as time go by months and years i will prove to u im worthy for u to love and trust in your heart. giving u all the love i had to u only u. im willing to sacrifice for u any thing even it to die. bi i wanna hold u tight in my hands, hug u tight to me. i wont ever leave u ! 1314 爱这你 ! 我永远不会离开你 !

2009-06-27T23:55:00.002+08:00

Hi all so long never blog le wor...... today nth much happen.
morning wake up then my queen size bed come le.... happy sia can sleep so big le..
afte that went to find Bi at her tuition center. then chat awhile pei her go bus 3 bus stop.
though that today only can see her till then. when to watch transformers with Aloy nice sia. after that Bi call me go her house play majong. YAY!! can see her again, miss her badly sia.

Bi love you, don ever leave me !!xD

2009-06-21T20:51:00.002+08:00

My first post here... let start with today morning.
morning when out with my family eat until like one pig..
after that when home find ALOY and DARRYL. change so slow. then when to find my BI bring her go tuition. reach there 4.14 walk slowly tthen 4.27 she when in. cab down to iluma play there 30min we cab back again LOL $20 sial go and back. i pay 10 ALOY pay 10. when back there at 6 to bring her home.
Bi miss u and love you! :D